keeping the beat

Charlie

Prior to last Monday, since getting home from vacation, we could count the number of nights you slept the whole night on one hand. Yep. 5. 5 nights. From June 6th until July 21st, you only slept the whole night thru 5 times. Part of me has decided this was a good thing. (A very small part, Mama likes her sleep.) We bonded. (I mainly got up with you since Dada had to work.) 

 At first it started with you screaming and sobbing in the middle of the night, then a couple of weeks into it you would just scream. So I would go in, rub your back, when you were in your crib. Then you got a toddler bed. Yep. So I would go in, you would crawl out of bed and we would rock. Then it got to the point where you were pulling me into bed with you. Slept deprived Mama thought, "Sure, why not!" (I know. It goes against all parenting books. I am okay with this. We slept. You slept well, Mama slept okay, it is a toddler bed.)




What I loved about this though, was the cuddling. You would rest your head on my shoulder or chest and I would get to hear the sigh of contentment from you. As you cuddled, your hand would tap to the beat of the music playing in the background. As the songs changed, so would your tapping. As you fall asleep, you close your eyes, but your hand still taps, your breathing changes, and as you finally get into deep sleep, your hand stops tapping. This is when I knew I could leave, if I hadn't already fallen asleep.


This past week has been different. Of the past 7 nights, you have only woken up twice. AWESOME!!!! Plus, Mama is refusing to get into the toddler bed (which doesn't always go well as you pound the bed in protest). I will lay on the floor next to your bed. When that happened this past week, I woke up to find you sleeping on the floor next to me. :)